There we were. The 5 of us. Standing at the top of the multi-story car park: looking down at the people below, going about their daily business. All of them oblivious. Oblivious to the fact that their lives were pointless. Meaningless. Fake…
I looked down the line, looking at each tear-stained face. Tabby, Devin, Josh, Reid, and myself. Reid stepped down from the ledge, and turned away, walking a few paces back. We all followed, knowing what was to come. We stood in a circle, holding hands, crying silently.
I was the first to produce my book, and lay it in the centre. I broke off from holding Devin and Tabbys hand, reaching into my inside pocket, and producing the little black book. The others did the same, and we laid them on the ground.
Each one contained our wishes. Our dreams. Our lives. Our faults, and our problems. And what we want done when we are gone.
We all stood up again, crying harder. Tabby was the first to go.
“I cant take this tension anymore” she said softly, her dark eyes watery from tears. She hugged us all close.
She turned away, and stood on the ledge again, looking down.
“I love you,” she said to us, not crying anymore. She smiled, the first true smile I had seen in ages. Then she jumped.
We could hear her cry as she fell, and the gasps and screams of the citizens below. We knew it wouldn’t be long until people were rushing up here.
I choked on my tears, fighting back the urge to break down on the floor.
Josh left my side, walking to the edge. He didn’t say anything. Words didn’t explain how he felt, but we all knew. We watched him looking down at the scene below, and then back at us. He smiled, and waved, tears falling from his face. He jumped.
I had to hold onto Devin to keep myself from falling. Two of my best friends had left this earth already. Reid went next.
He just said “I’ll see you on the other side: I’ll be waiting” before he disappeared over the edge.
I was looking into Devins eyes, and saw tears sparkling there. He helped me walk over to the edge, and up onto the ledge. I looked down at the scene. 3 bodies on the ground, and people crying, screaming, looking up at Devin and myself.
He squeezed my hand, and looked towards the sky.
“Now?” he said quietly”
“Now” I agreed. We jumped.
Images flew through my head
When my mum had yelled at me: when my dad grounded me: when I fell out with my friends: when I was at my lowest: when I carved “die” into my arm: Tabby falling: Josh jumping: Reid not even saying goodbye…
And then there was something different. One holiday with my family, and we were all laughing: in town when we were running away laughing: when I sat in my room thinking how lucky I was to have my friends: when Reid and me walked home: when Tabby and I made up: when Devin and me kissed…. and it was all gone. I would never experience it again. And then I hit the ground.
